MY FRONTAL LOBE IS NOT WORKING.

why you so cute? i wan my own gary HAHA if im jihyo i will be in heaven ^^

he's always thinking of her haha how sweet can it be? he's really one of the most ordinary dudes around (look at his face haha plain :P :P) but in his heart there is always jihyo!!!~

heartache max haaha :):)

fyi its episode 74 that got me high haha~ love love!~

PMS on the last day of 2011!
ben and jerry's to save the day.

(sorry weiqing if you see this, its why im late for dinner :( i need b&j to uplift my mood first cause i woke up cranky)

i wish i could listen to 987 top 100 countdown..

2011, the year of change. sick of this, sick of that. decided to be better to myself - but i guess everyone makes decisions they will never find out for the rest of their life if its the correct one. but some battles have to be fought, and im still trying to pick up the pieces from there. 

i want to bring forward the courage i had in 2011, and put more faith in 2012. that everything would work themselves out eventually, and there is nothing in the world i cannot achieve with the people i love by my side - you guys know who you are :)

i feel damn pissed because its the unfortunate time of the month and hence i have the right not to care about the world given the uncomfortable feeling im experiencing right now urgh D: i think this is one of the rights of females heh heh it means you probably shouldnt come and irritate us because if you do and we get annoyed, its definitely your fault :D

yesterday was a very suay day. i was talking to alyssa on the phone and i think my brain's ability of multitasking failed or something, because i walked into the guys toilet. 3 things hit me simultaneously #1 The toilet is blue #2 There are urinals #3 There are guys in the toilet. BUT those 3 things did not register in my head. it was only when #4 a dude washing his hands stopped me from going any further in did i u-turned and went out.



i hid in the females toilet and hope that no one that saw would recognise me afterwards.

WOO so i have changed my livejournal layout and im back! leaving my xanga there cause its quite good for rants, not alot of people know about its existence hahha. anyway im back on livejournal because im hoping it will help me to organise my thoughts better and cultivate good writing skills lol.

finals are over :D:D i feel like i had not had a break since the start of this semester. and when its after finals you're really like.. SO WHERE SHOULD I START on my life re-establishment project? HMM. yesterday i packed my notes lol. good student :D

i have a love-hate relationship with university. i don't really know if it is suitable for me because everything becomes so independent.. and also disorganised. do the lecturers know what they are teaching? what is the syllabus anyway? i kinda like it better when it was more structured like in JC. good old days. when i talk to friends from jc i get a different feeling from when i talk to my university friends. hmm, like im less afraid of being judged and i talk nonsensical stuff cause im more comfortable with them. that's a good feeling. i think its like when we talk, i still go back to my 17-year old self maybe. hahhaha.

i think it gets harder to trust people when you get older. sad but true. this is called adolesence (LOOK AT ME DOING CITATION: http://www.feveravenue.com/5things/) and growing up. raffles hall is good but because you meet everyone when they are 19-24 years old, there are alot of things you don't know about them. past life events that make them happy, songs that make them sad, memories that they want to forget but can't. it seems that everyone has a someone tainted past they carefully hide it away, and hide it carefully. you realise that there are people now classified as "wolves". and that the world is not pretty with butterflies but sometimes the evils in this world would make everything less simple and unpredictable. and its sometimes really hard to fight against it.

i like my hall friends but sometimes i feel that there's alot about them i don't know yet. hahhaha. i guess im not used to it, coming from IP and sticking with the same group of friends for.. 6 years? and there's alot of people i want to know better but at university uh the moment you are even spotted with a person of an opposite gender, this random stir shitting occurs and i've since learnt to just  accept it lol and join in the fun hahaha.

i've also realised that i have poor judgement. i am able to sense that something is not quite right but others can pinpoint directly as to whats wrong. this is the reason why i need friends in my life -.- and actually this is also somewhat similar to being gullible -.- its not really a good thing because it means im also easily suayed by public opinion due to my lack of opinions thereof >< i have made a few supper buddies from my major (we are all from different halls) but im not really able to enjoy myself entirely with them because 1. i don't know them well enough 2. i don't know whether they are joking or being serious when they make snide remarks with each other. maybe that's the way some guys communicate :/ but sometimes i get the idea they just laugh it off even if the other party really meant it, otherwise the friendship will become sour. in a way, its a rather hollow, on a surface friendship that kinda feeling with no stable foundations.

ON THE OTHER HAND, despite having said the above, there are still some people i feel very comfortable with and i cant wait to catch up with them! like friends from camp haha damn, i regret being lazy to arrange lunch with them more often. all this will improve next sem!

haha on to the happier stuff.. things that i'm quite happy about is my og mates from hall, and also being in sets :D i've really learnt alot and its not everyday you work with power tools. i now know what is the difference between a nail, a screw, a washer and a bolt!! woo. plus i made alot of good friends there keke ^-^ sets ppl all same frequency with me de leh i love stirring stuff with jacq and bao:):) and og mates esp weeliang always looking out for me, so quite happy haha. plus breakfast buddy who can always talk crap to, and all the other gorges ppl are very nice to be with :D:D wheee


not forgetting my roomie (WHO, ONCE YOU STAY WITH HER), realise that she is very funny and i have heard her scream x1000000 more times in this 4 months than the entire 6-7 years i've known her. she has also screamed x1000 times today alone D: and my sqdms who are always relevant in my life.


okay my conclusions for GP essays weren't good anyway so i'm now going to end my post abruptly here :D i think overall im still enjoying my uni life so THATS GOOD. and thats because i did not blog about my finals at all -.-

 http://www.nationalmuseum.sg/nms/nms_html/nms_content_6c.asp?content_template=4&content_id=23&tab_id=23&cine_id=3126&fest_id=0

does anyone wans to go to the museum? pompeii's interesting :D i went to the archaeological site before! and can anyone enlighten me if we are still considered students, cause students can go for free i think!!

 i just showed my mom all the prom photos that i had a facebook hahahah and she kept a lookout for a prospective husband for me. i think i will just settle for usui instead. i love showing my mom and my sis e photos their comments are hilarious!! i realised my sister has a photographic memory, she can remember my friends!! damn zai!! i look at her yearbook i only know like maybe 5 i think. but i ask very 现实 questions like "who is the 校草" then she will point out to me. but i think not alot like NHPKDL material so he is an exception.

speaking of which, hsinying's photos on facebook with half of my face are very obvious that the main point of the photo is not me but someone else instead! the things i do for my friends hahahhaha. well i guess at least now i can say that i have taken a photo with him before? lol what sort of a satisfaction is that -.-

but i think prom is really a waste of money, especially the dinner wth man. and i actually want to sit and watch e performances one lor but everyone is like everywhere -.- maybe i ate like $9 of my $90 dinner (this i dont dare to tell my mom )<)

went around reading some blogs hahaha they are quite hilarious entries actually, and leaves me cracking up at my comp and my mom probably thinks im retarded. good old times! ehui predicted how she would die? maybe i will die from a nervous fright. has anyone read The Five People You Meet In Heaven? if you remember the blue man, i think i might end up like him leh! thats why i dont wanna learn how to drive, cause its scary. im not even in control of myself, let alone an automobile?!?!

caught Boys Over Flowers on teevee the other day! the soundtrack so nice :) and the song that kimbum plays to the girl very nice hahhaha. i think im getting influenced by the kpop wave. its like i dunno what the heck they are saying but its still nice lol. and usually can guess what the lyrics saying. both the happy <3 and sad </3 songs are nice!! yesterday went to sing k with cousins hahah and whee wanxin and i managed like.. the english lines of bonamama and weddingdress! i like no other too, the mv so kewt leh!

my table is halfpacked so i shld get down with the other half lol -.- feeling damn lazy and not of the mood lah *headdesk* (i can do this now because my desk is now clean and free of dust)